Insomnia!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate sleepless nights 

It evokes all the would-of...

                          could- of....

                          should-of's...

Stuck in a past

I ended so fast

followed by all the what ifs...

                why nows...

                and how comes

I barely remember the details

of all 

the why nows...

How longs...

and so forth

 should I puke

               shit

               or let go 

               of my frustrations

                aggravations

                heart palpitations

            

My past

has been 

drowning me 

into a deep 

depression

I don't get why people call it the present

smoking mirrors

 are all 

I ever see

I hate sleepless nights

because all of  my thoughts

 have no conclusion

 should I puke

               shit

               or let go 

               of my frustrations

                aggravations

                heart  palpitations?

            

This state of mind

has lead me

 out 

of line

I cannot 

define 

the confines of  my life

My past has been drowning me 

In  feelings of hate

when 

will I ever

get to recuperate?